losing

 before

i'm absolutely addicted to it

never missed a chance to play

always going all out

but after that msg

it diminished my feelings about the game

feeling almost like a robot

playing for the sake of playing

that msg really has a devastating effect on me

never thought about that have you?

broke me

broke my spirit

adding i've been having loads of things

spinning my head

it'd take a miracle to revive the old me

help me my friends

for i cannot find my way

i'm literally in pieces

. . .i have lost. . .

myself

buzzing mind. . .

things have been normal for me

study in the mornings

helping out at green house's camp in the afternoon

homework in the evening

then off to sleep at night

and then wake up and the cycle repeat itself

yeap, that's my ongoings so far

that's from the outside. . . 

but inside

i've been drowning in my own obsession

never have i been so distracted

she pops into my mind a lot more times than i blink

even though it seems like an endless road

without a destination

without a road sign

without a simple direction...

i'm still walking

still hoping

still wishing

upon the stars

upon my dreams

at every corner

at every shadow

at every end of a rainbow

searching for a way

to make her mine

to let me belong to her

to be the special one

so as to cherish her

to love her every single bit

to make her laugh

to make her happy

even though it may mean 

the worst for me

as long as it's the better for her

it'll be worth my every effort.

<3

MSSD Athletics GONE! MSSD Volleyball IS COMING!

I am still sad about being in no fit condition 

to participate in the MSSD athletics competition

even more so when I see the pics taken on facebook

only thing left for me to do

is to wait for the feelings to fade away...

now all my focus is on volleyball.

congratulations to Jing Yuan for being the new captain.

yes, you misunderstood, you're the captain now,

and i'm the vice.

maybe it's better this way,

i've been holding that post ever since i started playing

it's something new to me,

and i like it.

it gives me space for improvements

i've been at my level long enough,

it's time for me to move on,

and this somehow opens the door for me.

yesterday's practice was great

quite a nice showdown between the oldsters and the youngsters

too bad none of those were recorded on tape

it'll be a nice recollection

13/4/10 is THE DATE

i just hope my back will be able to hold on till then

feeling a bit of a twinge every now and then.